En-Light

Something snapped while conversing with my colleague today. I realized something about myself that i tend to brush off.

Though it's more about self-awareness.... this little point made me the way i am now, have been and probably the future. Why am i quite(or pretty much) a control freak? Why do everything doesn't seem to satisfy me? And why, am i never really happy...

Since secondary school, i have been making independent decisions. I meant, i believe i'm not the only one doing it. I'm not blaming my parents, i truly appreciate them and love them. Somehow, they couldn't really provide me with what i really need to move further up. My colleague was telling me, whose mum is self-employed(who are usually willing to face death and risk), how sometimes she gets little pieces of advices.

Sometimes, i wished i had an older sibling, so that i can seek advice, and possibly shelter. This realization somehow made me stronger.... and i know i will be. At least i know i'm not afriad to live alone.