Free from addictions, anger and envy

It's funny how way back when I was working in the horrid company; where I spent most of my time alone in the office, eating lunch and dinner alone, I felt like I was the only one alive, and I almost lost my mind.

Fast forward many months later, and here I am having my dinner alone again, for like the third consercutive night. What exactly does loneliness means? Is it when you suddenly feel a sense of isolation, a rush of sadness, the feel of giving everything up cause you have nothing? It's almost like the flu bug that's always inside you, teasing and draining you unknowingly.

I guess loneliness follows you like a cursed shackle. Even when I'm free of unhappiness and guilt, it's weight is felt. Dates are supposed to lighten the load ain't they. Surprisingly nope.... .