If only life was this obvious....

I'm feeling listless these few days. Don't know why..... Maybe someone blew away my flame. After so long, I feel like I'm still at the crossroads. Either that or I took a trip and made a wrong turn and came back, stuff like that. You see people moving on to their next destination, career, aim and goal, and you feel sad cause you ain't really going anywhere. Here seems fine. Yes it still sucks big time but it seems fine. Not that I'm a stayer, I definitely wanna Fuck off this place, but I'm lacking fire. That's exactly what some FengShui lady told me when I was in Taiwan last year. I have too much "wood", or reserves, but I don't have the flame to start them up, to burn them. I'm trying to find my 'flame". What could it be? A lover? A pet? Something non-living? Myself?
That's right, to each his own..... You fall on your own hands, you stand with you own feet. Just gotta keep trying. I miss myself, my old self.