Point is..

Im a total emotional, depressed whack now.
Think my balloon just reached its full capacity.
It totally reminds me of the time when I broke up with my poly ex near my 21st birthday. Besides the fact that I'm really feeling sad, I was in freaking sispec(also known as the depressed grounds) I only had 2 or 3 friends who could make it to celebrate my birthday when I booked out. What's funny was we had 2 boxes of cakes, and there were only 3 of us. I love u guys very much!!!

And last year's birthday was not as bad, just that my ex broke up with me not long after without giving me a reason. Yup, my incoming bday seems more like a curse than a blessing. But the funny thing was, that is also the time when I met my exs... It's a hell of a freaking predictable cycle.

I'm quite a reclusive being. As much as I like the sun, I would go to the deepest of all caves to hide from it. You can tell from the way I write. Nothing's really evident, but the evidence are always lying around.