drifting

For some unknown reasons, I accidentally added my ex-boyfriend into a conversation that I was having with my friend on msn yesterday. From then now, everything seemed to went back to square one again. I quickly quitted the conversation box, but it didn't stop him from messaging me.

"wat u doing" (same freaking question)
me>"working lo u"
"nothing lo at home"
>"u still haven't found a job?"
"saw afew sending my resume"
>"what you doing man.... you did your resume before me"
"this whole month I don't know what I did"
>"u know im still angry with u"
"er....ya"

Before I could say anything more, he went offline. From this I know that he didn't change one bit, worst when we didn't spoke for 1 month, the longest we didn't spoke was only 3 days. I don't know why my heart still aches when I think of him, no matter what I do he's still there in my head. How I want to let go everything but I can't seem to, and there isn't anyone to talk to. Somehow I feel that I am going into depression again, it is welcoming me with open arms now......... Trip No.2 is always more enjoyable then the first one, and you get a free upgrade this time!

It's all in your head......

I'm drifting out into the lonely sea
wishing you will come back to me
I'm holding on to memories
the promise you once held so high
all I have now is wandering dreams