Waiting for the sunset

It's 930pm, and I'm still at the office. Something is happening to me, and i really don't know what is it. I feel this intense loneliness in my heart, and there isn't a way for me to let it out. It feels so choked in my lungs sometimes that it feels like i'm going to cough out blood. I still can't get over someone, no matter how busy i would be, in the end of the day, when i lie on my bed, i still think of him.

There's no one to look forward to, no greetings to send, it feels so aimless and what a joke this is! I feel like i'm the only one around, maybe it's because most of the time i'm alone in the office, and it does drive people crazy. i'm so used to have people around me, especially when i work at the service industry. Now i'm servicing no one, just the lifeless computer. How i wish i could run away, but i don't know where i want to run to..... There's nothing to hold on to, no rope to save me from drowning into the world of darkness.....maybe i am already inside, cause all i see these days are visions of ending.