Never any better....

These past 2 weeks have never been any better for me. Never had I felt so desperate, shitty and pathetic. Ever since my boyfriend told me he can't say that he love me back, everything seems to be going down hill. I guess he wants to move on, and I can't, and shouldn't stop him. This felt like my previous relationship, when I was the one who wanted to move on and left my boyfriend crying.

All these feel like some punishment, crying almost everyday..... It seemed so pointless to even think that he would return to me. What have I done? Why the sudden break off? He never, as always, tells me what went wrong. Towards the end of this week, im beginning to feel a little better. Maybe cause I have given up on trying to get him back, it's just so pointless.........

Back in the office, my big boss seems to be having PMS, flaring up at every little thing and being totally fussy. This, together with my recent breakup, made me feel so horrible and aimless that I just wanted to hide in some hole and never come out. Busy through the day, I only have my sleep time to ponder and clear my mind. I think I need a really good holiday soon..........