Long long time
It's been quite a while since I last updated, and quite a bit happened over these few days. One of my closer pals from poly is leaving for studies in Aussie tom, somehow I feel a part of me disappearing along with her.
It's funny how friends work. Some people get to know more and more as they grow older, while some know lesser. As for me, it seems that my circle of friends is slowly dissolving away. Now, I will have one less friend who will accompany me in town to stare at cute guys, even though she would often object heehhe!
Last weekend, I had the honor of having my first date since my breakup. At first, it sounded like a great date-to be, blading at East coast beach with a cute guy. Somehow, along the way, that didn't happened. Instead, I was not greeted by one but four guys. You might think that I am counting my blessings until I tell you one of them was my poly ex whom I haven't seen for like 3 years. Ok, so this guy was my ex's housemate and gladly, there was no awkward moments when we met. Somehow, I felt different from them, or maybe I seldom hang out with a group of gay men, blading along a beach and knowing almost every other gay man(shirtless nonetheless) that crossed our path. Suddenly, East coast park didn't seem that family friendly after all.
Im not feeling any better inside. I still feel what I felt 2 months ago and that sucked. A few days ago, my most recent ex finally had the courage to text me first. And I'm glad he did. I don't want to hold a grudge on someone forever, especially to the one that I loved so much and got so badly hurt by. He finally got out of his hole and started to search for jobs and going for interviews. And I'm happy for him. Even though I know deep inside we can never be like how we did last time, I don't want to lose another good friend, but bad lover. In the end, I think im the one whose still hiding in the hole, waiting for nothing.
I just love sappy songs...
You told me
you told me if I never change
you will wrap me in your arms again
filled with joy and happiness
a place where time doesn't matter
where nothing comes between us
and we share one moment together
I will come out of the rain
waiting upon you
hoping you'll do the same
and till we meet again
I will remember the words you said
It's funny how friends work. Some people get to know more and more as they grow older, while some know lesser. As for me, it seems that my circle of friends is slowly dissolving away. Now, I will have one less friend who will accompany me in town to stare at cute guys, even though she would often object heehhe!
Last weekend, I had the honor of having my first date since my breakup. At first, it sounded like a great date-to be, blading at East coast beach with a cute guy. Somehow, along the way, that didn't happened. Instead, I was not greeted by one but four guys. You might think that I am counting my blessings until I tell you one of them was my poly ex whom I haven't seen for like 3 years. Ok, so this guy was my ex's housemate and gladly, there was no awkward moments when we met. Somehow, I felt different from them, or maybe I seldom hang out with a group of gay men, blading along a beach and knowing almost every other gay man(shirtless nonetheless) that crossed our path. Suddenly, East coast park didn't seem that family friendly after all.
Im not feeling any better inside. I still feel what I felt 2 months ago and that sucked. A few days ago, my most recent ex finally had the courage to text me first. And I'm glad he did. I don't want to hold a grudge on someone forever, especially to the one that I loved so much and got so badly hurt by. He finally got out of his hole and started to search for jobs and going for interviews. And I'm happy for him. Even though I know deep inside we can never be like how we did last time, I don't want to lose another good friend, but bad lover. In the end, I think im the one whose still hiding in the hole, waiting for nothing.
I just love sappy songs...
You told me
you told me if I never change
you will wrap me in your arms again
filled with joy and happiness
a place where time doesn't matter
where nothing comes between us
and we share one moment together
I will come out of the rain
waiting upon you
hoping you'll do the same
and till we meet again
I will remember the words you said
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6:51 PM
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