Seeing and believing

Haven't posted in a looooonnng while, Guess when you become a bummer, you tend to wait for the next day to do things, or the day after the next, and so on.

3 weeks have past since I quitted my job. Called my boss regarding my pay and they told me the lamest reason for not paying me up yet.

"We are very busy now and we will call you"

I guess they haven't found a new replacement yet, bet nobody wanna work in a low-paying stress-busting environment like theirs.

I'm still jobless and loveless lol! I realized when im working I tend to focus on my work to distract myself from my incredibly amazing and fucked up love life. Now that I'm unemployed, my mind kinda went crazy. Illusions of wanting and needing have never felt this great. My aim in life appears like a small flickle of light from a distance. I have never felt this way for a long time.
I guess people call it the 'tru-calling" ? The moment when you make real decisions when in the past you were running away from.

So what decisions do I have in mind? I don't know. Maybe I will think about it tommorrow.