03april2006

I won't forget this day. This day made me realized what type of people have I been meeting. Remember the guy whom I liked but had really messy signals? Well, last week he gave the worst signals ever. And in the end, he still told me he treats me like a bro. I'm fine with that, since I have lost everything I had wanted to gain.

He never contact me since. And when I messaged him today and asked if he was ignoring me, he told me he didn't want to send me the wrong signals. So I guessed I have been disposed, like some trash. I guess he never knows how im feeling right now.

Thank god I did not let him do anything sexually, if not I am so gonna feel worthless right now. But the thing that saddens me is how he stole my mental and emotional feelings. I guess some of you might not understand. He was the one who led me on and suddenly I'm dumped in a dessert. I have already wasted my time and there's nothing that I can get back, not like some bank investment. How I wish I have some memory eraser right now..Oh how I wish...